John 5:19

I have been thinking about John 5:19. (Then Jesus answered and said to them, "Most assuredly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, but what He sees the Father do; for whatever He does, the Son also does in like manner.) It seems to me that I have lived my life without really taking this statement into account. Martin Scott once said that if Jesus wrote a book then all it would contain would be this statement. I think that on reflection perhaps the most radical thing about Jesus is that he only did what he saw the Father doing and nothing else!
I do not think that I have lived like that at all. I have set goals, I have had ambitions but these have all come from me. I have got busy doing christian stuff which no one could argue was not good or right to get involved with but how much of it did I see the Father doing before hand? How much of it did I do just to move up in the christian world on to bigger and better things?
To live like this, to say I will only do what I see the Father do is at odds with all that I have previously thought about my journey through life.
It has really challenged me to become one who totally surrenders my life to Him and do only those things he does, rather than things that seem good.
How much of what we do is just us getting more and more busy with Christian stuff?

Anyway, this is still a little disjointed and I want to smooth it out in some form of prose, I just wanted to get something down before I forgot!